musings from a heart and mind transformed by the Gospel

Who i am and why i blog

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting. Psalm 139:23,24

"Nearly all the wisdom we possess, that is to say, true and sound wisdom, consists of two parts: the knowledge of God and of ourselves.” John Calvin - The Institutes of Christian Religion

What does Mind and Heart Theology mean? 
Definition of theology- the study of the nature of God

It was easy to give my heart to Christ after He made me His. It has been a little more difficult to get more head knowledge of my Savior because that meant I had to purposely seek this knowledge out with a very intentional approach to knowing more of Him, which is basically what theology is. 

So, as I purposely set out to learn more about the God that saved me, through reading and studying His word, the Bible, I am also learning how to apply what I learn not only to my heart, which comes easy, but my mind as well, not for a facade of outward holiness for my own glory....but a deep and lasting inward holiness for God's glory alone. 

Here is my attempt to apply labels to describe who I am, what this blog is about and why I bother.

Most important label

First of all, I would not have the capacity to think and process theology if God, through His grace and His mercy, had not first interrupted my broken life, when I was deep in the trenches of outward sin, saved me, justified me from the penalty of my sin, gave me the gift of faith, took the scales off my eyes, adopted me into His family and put me on a path of sanctification. 

So my first and most important all-encompassing label would be a sinner saved by God's beautiful grace, making me beloved!!!

My 10 less significant, labels
1) I'm a Mexican American woman, wife to Paul, who is straight up white (I say that with lots of cariƱo --> love and affection)                                                                                
2) Mother of 4
3) I'm an advocate for people to deeply (meaning with the heart AND mind) study theology.
4) World people lover. 
5) A home school mamma to my two youngest kiddos.
6) Culture analyzer. 
7) People observer. 
8) Real food foodie...or at least I try to be.  
9) Part time blogger - as this helps clear my mind when it's cluttered with thoughts and observations I see in 
   -the church
   -others, Christian or not
   -culture...or rather....multiculturalism or issues of ethnicity
10) Seminary student at Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary where I am pursuing two masters degrees. 

In my beginning......
At the age of 33, God gave me life. Then He radically changed my entire person and in that changing gave me new desires for Him. My blatant outward sins no longer had a hold on me, however, I began to realize that the battle was now with my inward sins, the ones that are not easily seen, which are my thoughts, motives,  emotions and reactions towards others. I struggle immensely with my thoughts and emotions but scripture tells me that from the very beginning when God saved me, the Holy Spirit began working in me.  In conjunction with Bible reading/studying I have been able to see the fruit of sanctification take root in my life and I am deeply thankful to God for teaching me and molding me to be more like His Son, my Redeemer, Christ Jesus. Some days it comes easy. Some days I find it more difficult because I am stubborn. Inevitably, God has his way. 


For many years, I was ashamed, disgruntled, frustrated with not only my past, but my current season in life.

However, the last few years, God has been growing me to trust Him...with past, my present and my future. 

With that trust, I have been able to be more open about where I come from, more content about my present and deeply thankful that God continues to sanctify me for His glory and my good and this gives me hope for my future and the future of my children and their children...until Christ returns. 

So, my hope is that through getting my thoughts out in the open, I can encourage others to Fight the good fight of the faith and take hold of the eternal life to which we are called" (1 Tim 6:12) 

My aim and hope is that this blog will
1) share how sanctification and application of scripture to the mind and heart looks like in my day to day encounters as it relates to my husband, my children, and anyone or anything that God places in my path. 
2) point others to consider Christ
3) remind me how much God loves me in spite of myself
4) oftentimes preach to myself 
5) share my thoughts on culture, ethnicity, diversity and religion
6) review books I read, though at times I am reading more than 3 or 4 books at time so I forget to review when I am done....i might need a better system of reading.

If anyone would like to contact me, for important reasons or no reason in particular, I'd love to hear from you. 

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